Depression. One of most dangerous diseases.
Makes you think like anything
I went in deoression due to my collge things. I couldnt pass that year so I want into depression that time.
Depression is like Chakraview, Once you goes into it its diificult to come out unless you serously want to come out of it. You need lots of will powar to come out of it.
I was not having any hope or anything to come out . So still I am in it. I was in this disease from nov 2010, around 9 years has passed. Is a stage where you dont want to talk with anyone, dont like to enjoy you life as others do. You just like to sit quite n do some stupid things .
In 2010, when my dad disgnosed me abou this they took me too one of Phychologist(Name not Disclosed) in Kolhapur. He took my interview n asked dada what happend and all. They said my dad that i am in deep depression on that time. Tey prescribed me some anti phychotis and sedatives as i was not able to sleep that time.
After starting tablets I started etting some sleep but i didnt recovered from that stage as I was scared to go to college after that. 6 or 8 months passed after that. Then they took me out from that college. I was inhome or 4 to 5 months that time. I was just sleeping and sleeping whole day that time. I was still not able to sleep hat time. So this time jiju takes me to Dr. He again prescribd me some powerful medications to tackle my depression. Anyhow i was recovering rom that in that I got news that my dad took my admission to a colge which is in a rural place o Karnataka , which is 3 hrs away from my home. I never liked to stay away rom my home. I was just recovering and again this happned then i again went into depression and anxiety.
I dont know why parents dont understand something. I was needing some time to recover that time. They didnt gave me and sent me out of home soon. How anyone whos is not in good mental state will live away from home after such an incident. I know hey thought good for me as i have lost 2 years already due to previous degree college,
They thought in different way and it went in another way no one will thought. I never recovered cause of that. I tried many thing to cope up with all. Made some od friends. They tried to take me out of situation they succided some what but it went back to normal.
I was loving a girl in that collge Miss Tamannah( Lets not disclose the name). She was so childing or i was so matured i dont know. We loved each other a lot. I tried to marry with her but due to my depression and aggression she whoose someone better than me. Again after that incident I went into depression. Though like there is no hope to live. But anyhow I managed to go through it with help of friend and with a help of a clinical psychologist. I was good for some period of time. Istareted smiling and enjoying my life with friend. Some one special taught me to smile and told me how much I look good when there is smile on my face.
That special pesone (GG), becomes my life from that period. We fell in love . She was my junior . I use to go to her class or lecture with my sir. In that period she saw me. I was so silent that time I was not even staring at anyone. I use to go to cassroom , attach my laptop as I use to prepare PPT for that class, n do out by keeping my head down. I never use to see any girl or anything. I was not intrested in such things that time.
GG saw me doing all this , and also while i was working in ward and running behind sir for patients. I dont know how but she sent me request on FB. I accepted that. Before she sends me FB request i was her in college Gathering. I tried to ask her name but no on from my gang was knowing about her. I didt went behind her, but i just liked her how she talkes n looks.I almost fell in love with her.
I accpted her request.I remeber Gudi Padawa( MArathi New Year) was there, i sent her wihings on that day. She wished me back. Then Again next day we sent greeting to each others, Gm Gn like. This chatting goes on. We a days came we were taking alot. On first night itself we were talking whole night. As we shared numbers we talked for first time that night. I was not able to pronounce R properly so wanted to listen her name as it contains R in it. She laughed alot that night. That night was awesome.
Ok next on next blog. See you Love you GG
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